It's been a month. A month of hurt, heart pain and death. A month of hate filled words, anger and men in high places acting like idiots. I do not have fancy words for this... it is just ugly and hard to watch. From politics to race and culture... we are broken, and all in need of heart transplants.
These days call for conversations where eyes connect, voices small and ears willing to listen, not jumping ahead to... "but, but but." Where we recognize fear for what it is... a liar, and what drives many people to act and react.
Instead we left jab, right jab through Facebook and twitter. We find it easy to attack when we hide behind our walls. We can throw a punch, knocking a whole culture to the pavement and walk away laughing.
When I asked a twenty something what he thought of the current divide between blacks and police, the quick response was, "I'm sick of hearing about it." My thought was, "Isn't that easy for you, young white man. You are on the top of the pile." That's a fact of white privilege. It's not a sin, just a fact. There was a lack of empathy and reality that there was a pile to stand on, let alone that he was on the top.
Two young black friends thank me for using my white privilege to speak up for them. They say, "For you as a white woman to speak for us, is much more effective than our voices. We may be seen as those angry black women." Neither of these women are angry... they are bright, calm, educated, articulate.
I do not remember ever being called an angry white woman. Why do we label black women in this way? Because it's easy and common and also... wrong.
I watch two conventions, one Lilly white, the other a picture of diversity. I find flaws with both parties and this is not a stand for either... but more a moment that shows a divide, that I do not understand. We are diverse, why can we not celebrate it and appreciate the beauty we all bring to the table? We need a heart transplant.
It reminds me of Gungor's, God is not a white man.
Human suffering does affect all of us and we are called to act... "What does the Lord require of you, oh Man? To act justly, love mercy and to walk humbly with your God." Micah 6:8
This is how we are called to live. How we doing?!